Temperance
I got her purple tulips because they mean royalty,
I tell her as they sit in a vase between us.
I do not tell her that tulips were the first thing
that were ever mine, the only thing
my mother let me plant in her garden,
the only place in his house that was ever her home.
I do not tell her that this shade of purple
was the favorite color of my childhood best friend,
a girl I no longer speak to but who helped me plant tulips
and appears in my dreams at least once a week.
I do not tell her that being with her feels like
the relief of the first winter breeze
that told us it was time to plant, that burying my hands
in the cool dark earth felt like meeting God.
I do not tell her that some years they couldn’t take
the heat of those summers that felt like
the world itself wanted everything to die, and
we would have to dig up the dead bulbs to replace them.
I do not tell her that I am afraid
we are as delicate as these flowers.
I only tell her that I hope one day
she will plant tulips with me.
Brook is a Rhode Island based writer from Maryland who will never get used to New England winters. She is a Virgo, firmly believes most food can be improved with a little Old Bay, and never knows what answer to give when asked what her favorite novel is. She will be teaching English in Poland later this year, and in the meantime is looking forward to quiet afternoons making her way through her girlfriend’s bookshelves, baking new recipes, and extending her 1050-day Duolingo streak in Polish and Spanish.